warisart: (Don't Let Them Get Me)
Ben / X5-493 ([personal profile] warisart) wrote in [personal profile] versusnurture 2014-02-18 04:11 am (UTC)

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[Not knowing is a viable answer, an honest one; Ben doesn't know many things. It's better than lying to oneself, convinced of knowing something that is merely a strong desire, or someone else's expectation turned to a desperate quest for approval. Denial.

She doesn't have to know. That's what he's here for, or one of the things he's here for. He's not sure he knows all of them.
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It's okay. My point is that should doesn't matter much except as a motivation; should is pressure from an external source, and it is secondary to what you can or cannot do. The latter determines the former.

[His heart breaks a little for the rest of what she has to say, because he recognizes it; he hears his own voice pleading with Max, we never should have left, everything made sense there and how impossible her reply seemed. She wasn't being honest. She was counterbalancing, trying to keep them both from tipping over under the slide.]

No. It will never be the same; nor should it be. It didn't always feel bad but sometimes it did, and that means something needs to change. As long as you are cognizant of that, you have choices.

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