[She considers this, all of it, lets it settle in her belly, lets it digest. It feels like a dangerous amount of responsibility for her to hold, but then again, Ben has a history of giving her a dangerous amount of responsibility. It hasn't blown up in his face yet.]

[One thing, though. One thing she still can't fit.]

It's - making decisions based on feeling. It's not logical. It's not.

It's not what I was taught? Or it's not what . . . feels right. It's like a broken puzzle piece, or petting a cat backwards.