They were good parents. I loved them. I didn't even know I was doing it until it was too late.
I had all this power in me, from me, but I couldn't control it, not when it mattered, never when it mattered.
[He thinks of the town where he spared the half-block with the preschool in it. How proud he was. A little sliver of control, while the beast fed and the people below seethed into a war zone. He thinks of the power wreaking itself on the world while he was unconscious, carried along by it and the river in tandem. He thinks about the people he healed at Hearst Castle, thinking it mattered, before he discovered where they came from.]
When everything else is out of control, every little descision, everything that's yours is precious. Is sustaining, helps you keep going through everything happening around you. That's just human, feeling like that.
[He thinks, would like to think, of himself as human still.]
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They were good parents. I loved them. I didn't even know I was doing it until it was too late.
I had all this power in me, from me, but I couldn't control it, not when it mattered, never when it mattered.
[He thinks of the town where he spared the half-block with the preschool in it. How proud he was. A little sliver of control, while the beast fed and the people below seethed into a war zone. He thinks of the power wreaking itself on the world while he was unconscious, carried along by it and the river in tandem. He thinks about the people he healed at Hearst Castle, thinking it mattered, before he discovered where they came from.]
When everything else is out of control, every little descision, everything that's yours is precious. Is sustaining, helps you keep going through everything happening around you. That's just human, feeling like that.
[He thinks, would like to think, of himself as human still.]