third ♢ filters & voice

[versusnurture]

filter } inmates

How many of you think that you're insane?

filter } inmates-turned-wardens (minus ben)

What made you decide to stay on as wardens?

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[versusnurture]

Was it worth it?

[surrenders]

[A small, positive sound.]

Wouldn't be who I am without some of the people I met after.

I know it isn't for everybody.

[versusnurture]

Well, is who you are now better than who you were before?

[surrenders]

...yeah. It is.

Doesn't say much, though.

[versusnurture]

What do you mean?

[surrenders]

Who I was before would have let everyone else here get killed for somebody else's sense of fun.

I'd load his gun so he could take a break with a knife.

[Abigail clearly knows she used to be here in the same situation as her, there's no harm in admitting it.]

[versusnurture]

He?

[surrenders]

...there was a man before I came here.

Somebody's life only mattered to him if he knew he could end it.

[versusnurture]

But you left him behind.

[surrenders]

He was here a while, too. Only difference then was I had to tell him no.

Probably saying too much for just having met you, but people tell stories around here, right? Everyone finds out who was who, even if not from them.

[versusnurture]

I wouldn't have asked if I hadn't wanted to hear stories.

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[surrenders]

[That little bit might reveal a lot, so Lua's going to make a guess at what type of girl she has here, see if this is a fishing trip like she used to make.]

People tell you a lot if you ask right.

My question the first month was what you'd need around this ship to make you happy.

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[versusnurture]

And what answers did you get?

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[surrenders]

Some people wanted stuff like they couldn't get if they were an inmate. Guns, booze, things like that. Friend of mine wanted his wife and kids, girl who lived next door to me wanted to get out.

People like to talk about themselves.

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[versusnurture]

They do. Even if they don't realize it.

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[surrenders]

Yeah. I figured half the people who answered were trying to get a handle on me.

[It's a warning, in a way, one Lua wishes she'd had.]

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[versusnurture]

I'm sure that hasn't changed.

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[surrenders]

Still got the same kind of people here.

["It hasn't," and in a way it's an admission of her own curiosity.]

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[versusnurture]

There are the same kinds of people anywhere.

So what kind am I? Or you, for that matter?

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[surrenders]

Don't know you well enough to call you a "kind".

I know you're smart and people are gonna overlook that because you're a girl and you look real soft.

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[versusnurture]

You know from experience?

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[surrenders]

I never was too smart.

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[versusnurture]

The other part. Underestimating you because you're a girl.

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[surrenders]

Not as much of that now. This was a real different place a couple years ago.

[She's also not hanging around that kind of guy.]

But you don't want someone to know what you can do... it's good, sometimes.