third ♢ filters & voice

[versusnurture]

filter } inmates

How many of you think that you're insane?

filter } inmates-turned-wardens (minus ben)

What made you decide to stay on as wardens?

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[godsays]

I am angry. But not at you.

[versusnurture]

There's a lot to be angry at, here.

[godsays]

What I'm angry about came with me.

[versusnurture]

Not being able to make your own decisions?

[godsays]

Decisions are one thing. Being powerless is another.

[versusnurture]

I'm sorry it came with.

[godsays]

It's a different kind than what I usually know. Harder to ignore here.

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[versusnurture]

It feels impossible to escape.

That's why I said I'm sorry. Not because I pity you, but because I understand as much as anyone who isn't you can understand that.

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[godsays]

[ A beat. ]

Who used you?

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[versusnurture]

Someone who's here and someone who isn't. I'd rather not say. Definitely not where he can see.

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[godsays]

He can see now?

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[versusnurture]

Where he can read it or hear it. I don't want him to know I'm afraid.

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[godsays]

...My father.

He was the one who used me. He made me to be a weapon.

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[versusnurture]

Oh. Mine too.

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[godsays]

Then you're not alone here.

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[versusnurture]

Not as alone. It still feels very alone.

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[godsays]

I know.

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[versusnurture]

How long have you been here?

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[godsays]

Five months. Maybe six.

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[versusnurture]

Do you want to leave?

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[godsays]

This place hurts, and I want it to stop. But I have nowhere else to go, if I tried.

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[versusnurture]

I'm sorry about that, too. I don't either.

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[godsays]

It's something a lot of inmates have in common.