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[versusnurture]

spam } open

[She wakes up screaming at what is, relatively speaking, three in the morning. It's a nightmare, the first really bad one since she died. She tries to remember what it was, what exactly, but it's all a blur; she remembers screaming in the dream, too; she remembers a lure; she remembers blood, lots of blood; she remembers a song. Ein Männlein steht im Walde . . . She remembers not being able to breathe. She remembers her mouth was full.]

[The first few nights, she calls people. She asks for help. After that, she wanders the halls, unable to get back to sleep, unwilling to lie in the dark any longer. Her hair is tied back, a scarf tucked around her shoulders, but her scar still stands out against the pale clamminess of her neck.]

audio } ben

[Night one, she calls Ben. She is crying, her voice muffled (she is using the bear as a pillow, as something with which to dry her tears).]

I'm not hurt. [She has to clarify this first, so he doesn't fear for her, so he doesn't hurt for her. This is how she protects him.] But I need you. Please. If - it's not too late.

audio } blight

[It's instinct to contact him. Maybe it's bad instinct. But it's what she reaches for the second night, once she's calmed herself down enough that she's no longer hyperventilating. Once she feels mostly human again.]

[It's midnight. She sounds as chipper as if it was noon.]

What do you know about brain chemistry?

text, filtered away from hannibal } public, april 7

who has nightmares

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[darknessb4me]

The rules don't apply in a nightmare. You can't fight back.

[versusnurture]

Then it shouldn't be frightening. You're not yourself.

But it still is.

[darknessb4me]

What should be and what is are so far apart as to be irrelevant to each other in most cases.

[versusnurture]

I didn't mean morally should. I mean logically.

[darknessb4me]

Fair enough.

And, yes. There's no point in applying logic to a dream while you're outside of it.

[versusnurture]

Do you ever have the dream where you're trying to run but your feet are stuck to the ground?

[darknessb4me]

Not that particular one.

[versusnurture]

That one's bad.

Which ones, then?

[darknessb4me]

Reliving bad memories, mostly.

[versusnurture]

Those are worse. Harder to get away from when you wake up because they were real.