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spam } open

[She wakes up screaming at what is, relatively speaking, three in the morning. It's a nightmare, the first really bad one since she died. She tries to remember what it was, what exactly, but it's all a blur; she remembers screaming in the dream, too; she remembers a lure; she remembers blood, lots of blood; she remembers a song. Ein Männlein steht im Walde . . . She remembers not being able to breathe. She remembers her mouth was full.]

[The first few nights, she calls people. She asks for help. After that, she wanders the halls, unable to get back to sleep, unwilling to lie in the dark any longer. Her hair is tied back, a scarf tucked around her shoulders, but her scar still stands out against the pale clamminess of her neck.]


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text, filtered away from hannibal } public, april 7

who has nightmares
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spam } zero, saturday 23-tuesday 26

[Forty-eight hours after she walks into Zero, Ben lets her have visitors. She won't ask anyone who enters to leave - she knows, in an abstract way, that a lot of people will be angry about what she's done. They should be. And for the time being, she can distance herself from public opinion, at least for the most part.]

[Her responsiveness varies based on who comes to see her, how in the moment she can manage to be when they come in. Whether she's been drifting beforehand. But she tries, at least, to look people in the eye and answer them.]


spam } zane )

spam } tuesday 26-thursday 28

[After which she spends most of the rest of the week in her room. It's partially hiding, partially trying to remember how to think straight.]

[On Thursday she only loses time once, and only for a few minutes. She feels grounded, then, enough to walk to the dining hall and back - a concerted effort. She's still terrified, probably more so than before. But it has to happen sometime.]

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Abigail Hobbs

a perfectionist;

( one of those very smart girls who hasn't quite figured out that very smart girls grow up and know all the moves that they're making when they're trying to hide something )