Abigail Hobbs (
versusnurture) wrote2015-01-06 06:17 pm
Entry tags:
- ] ( i was the lure ),
- ] did you fish,
- ] or did you hunt,
- always the possibility of murder later,
- as i am bled he calls me daughter,
- bait even now,
- by the throat,
- collecting dads like they're pokemon,
- daddy's daughter,
- don't fence me in,
- friends & family,
- group therapy is choking the life out of,
- kitchen tyrant abigail hobbs,
- learning how to everything again,
- learning how to people again,
- poses poses that's all you are to me,
- rosehips,
- so i just did what he told me,
- the piemaker waltz
twenty-five ♢ spam & voice
How many people here actually hunt? Or fish? Self-sustaining outdoorsy things.
Next time we come to a port that's not - life or death, people being forced to kill each other, whatever. We should organize a hunting party.
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I would want my new self to have her own becoming. So I would give her a weapon, and no memories at all.
spam } philip
[She isn't stupid. She realizes when she's being ignored, and not only does she dislike it, she finds it childish. If Philip wanted her to leave him alone and had a good reason for it - if he gave her the reason, she might accept it. But this, running away and hiding, it's behavior fit for a little boy, not an adult. It's the kind of thing the kid who threw snowballs at her might do, the kind of thing that the man she met ought to be better than.]
[So she sits down across from him at lunch after her shift is over and fixes him with a Look.]
Stop avoiding me.
spam } scott
[She tiptoes up on him on deck, sneaking up to put her hands over his eyes. She knows he can hear her coming, smell her, too, but they'll both just pretend he can't.]
Guess who?
spam } open
[When she's not tracking down crazy zombie killers, Abigail can be found all over the Barge. Much of her time is spent in the kitchens, where she works on the lunch shift with Ben and occasionally fills in other shifts as necessary. Most of her socializing in the dining hall is spent around the lunch shift, too, when she carefully and methodically checks in with the people she has begun to dub hers.]
[Later, she finds herself drawn inexplicably towards the art room. It's the first time in a while that she's gone near it; she used to be very anti-art therapy, but now . . . she doesn't know. It reminds her of Hannibal, and that calms her and makes her anxious all at once. She hovers outside the door for a while, not sure whether to stay or go.]
[Finally, she can be found in her room. The door is open, and music is playing from the inside. It's a waltz. She isn't dancing; just sitting on her bed, waiting. Nobody seems to be coming.]
Next time we come to a port that's not - life or death, people being forced to kill each other, whatever. We should organize a hunting party.
private } mira
[As out of nowhere:]
I would want my new self to have her own becoming. So I would give her a weapon, and no memories at all.
spam } philip
[She isn't stupid. She realizes when she's being ignored, and not only does she dislike it, she finds it childish. If Philip wanted her to leave him alone and had a good reason for it - if he gave her the reason, she might accept it. But this, running away and hiding, it's behavior fit for a little boy, not an adult. It's the kind of thing the kid who threw snowballs at her might do, the kind of thing that the man she met ought to be better than.]
[So she sits down across from him at lunch after her shift is over and fixes him with a Look.]
Stop avoiding me.
spam } scott
[She tiptoes up on him on deck, sneaking up to put her hands over his eyes. She knows he can hear her coming, smell her, too, but they'll both just pretend he can't.]
Guess who?
spam } open
[When she's not tracking down crazy zombie killers, Abigail can be found all over the Barge. Much of her time is spent in the kitchens, where she works on the lunch shift with Ben and occasionally fills in other shifts as necessary. Most of her socializing in the dining hall is spent around the lunch shift, too, when she carefully and methodically checks in with the people she has begun to dub hers.]
[Later, she finds herself drawn inexplicably towards the art room. It's the first time in a while that she's gone near it; she used to be very anti-art therapy, but now . . . she doesn't know. It reminds her of Hannibal, and that calms her and makes her anxious all at once. She hovers outside the door for a while, not sure whether to stay or go.]
[Finally, she can be found in her room. The door is open, and music is playing from the inside. It's a waltz. She isn't dancing; just sitting on her bed, waiting. Nobody seems to be coming.]

[room spam]
She was definitely not expecting to hear music coming from one of the rooms.
At first, she just walks past the open door-- it's not like it's any of her business. But then she gets curious and doubles back, walking past it again and deliberately looking in this time. Finally, she starts slowly walking backwards, stopping when she's in front of the open door for a third time.]
Hey.
You got a radio in there?
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[Abigail peers out of her door, then stands and smooths down her skirt.]
Not a radio. It's a record player. It was a present.
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... Who was it from?
[A warden, she figures. She's pretty sure wardens are the ones you get the goods from here.]
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[Philip stops just short of tossing his fork down on his plate. He looks away from her, pushing the plate aside as he leans back a little in his seat. When he returns his gaze to her, the anger she saw before just beneath the surface is plain to see and pinpointed on her like a magnifying glass on an ant.]
[He has been avoiding her. It's been for her sake nearly as much as for his own. He doesn't appreciate her ghosting his steps the way she has been off-and-on these past few weeks. He also doesn't appreciate the look he's receiving from her now or that she's even here trying to confront him about it instead of leaving him in peace. He'd felt a similar anger when Lilly convinced him to stay, but there? There had been enough of a connection, enough of him that cared, that could soften that anger and convince himself that things could turn out differently.]
[There's none of that here and now.]
What do you want?
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[Her smile is cold, but also genuine.]
I want to know what it is about me that upset you so much that you can't stand to be near me.
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[It's wistful, but it's not a question. She's seen enough of Abigail, in the months they've lived beside each other without touching, to know she is precise; and the cadence of the belated answer is utterly deliberate, deliberated. Her old self didn't have a weapon to leave her; she can only hope the name she was given was faithfully delivered.]
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[ Dining Hall Spam ]
It's still weird.
But she's hungry and the food she's tried so far here has been... unexpectedly good. Which is why she swings in at the tail end of the lunch shift, hair pulled back somewhat sloppily and several layers of shirts under the hoodie she's wrapped herself up in to get from her cabin to here.
She was sure she'd be late; she's still getting used to the time schedule as well as the weather here. Barge-lag? Anyway.]
Hey, sorry. Am I too late?
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No way. The longer you keep me here, the less time I have to spend just . . . nothing-ing.
What do you want? Besides the mashed potatoes, which are basically perfect today.
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I mean. If that's imposing, I totally understand. I'm just . . . [Bored. Confined. A little lonely.]
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If we find another port like that...where there's game to be had...count me in.
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[spam/room]
It's later, on her way to the laundry, that she hears music coming from the open door and impulsively stops in the doorway to say hi.]
'Ey Abigail. I've 'eard this before but I'm buggered if I can put a name to it.
[spam/room]
I don't know what it's called. Ned never told me.
Do you want to come in?
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Do I get a hint?
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Come on. Bet you can't guess.
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